Enrolment (for me) officially starts tomorrow, but I have to go to school today for CSSC activities.  Naturally, I'd have to wake up early.  And wake up early, I did; way too early, in fact.  So with so much time in my hands, I just remembered numerous things in this early morning - with Lei and Lei alone.  Mahirap pag mag-isa, masyadong maraming naiisip.

I thought of you, dear friend, and our little conversation just a few days ago.  In this entire weekend, much of my thoughts were on you.  Oh my, too much has changed!! No, we aren't kids anymore.  But, we're still friends.  That much I can assure you.  We're friends no matter what, ok?

I miss Davao, everything I've done there, and all the wonderful people I met.  I miss the clean air, the clean roads, the entire clean city!!!  And it's not just the place I miss; it would be misleading to say that.  It's the entire sense of peace (even if ironically, we weren't supposed to feel that) I felt in Davao.  Everything was right because we were fighting for what was right.   Nung andun ako, everything in me clicked into place.  Never in this entire year have I felt so alive... and I realized that that's exactly how I want to feel about my work (and life in general).  Yung passionate ako, yung kaya kong ipaglaban yung ginagawa kahit na alam mo na maraming obstructions, problems, etc.  Yung alam ko na wala akong regrets.  That's not exactly how I feel right now. Hay, God, I miss that feeling.

And because the "Davao feeling" isn't exactly what I feel right now, I remembered my little enrolment dilemma.  Ok, back to reality, my BIG dilemma.  No more "bahala na".  I have to make a clear-cut decision by tomorrow.  Pure or applied?  My Physics friends will understand.  Oh yes, guys, I am seriously thinking about it.  At wala nang atrasan when I reach my inevitable decision.

God, give me strength.